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Born in 1915 on October 2 Elise Betty Kauders Loeb – MY Mother

October 2, 2015

what confounds me about my mother is how much I am like her. I miss her 

she was fallible and unflappable a brilliant star a budding blossom of an enormous flower she was my mother

My Mother Born today  October 2  Elise Betty Kauders

 

My mother, Elise, was born 99 years ago today. She was a confounding mixture of good and bad. She was brilliant intellectually and cold emotionally — even cruel. Did I love her? Yes. Did I hate her? Yes. Did I want her to love me? Yes. Did she? In an abstract way, yes — but supportively, no. She has been dead more than three years now. I must try to come to terms with her. I have to write about her — from her perspective, not just from mine. Because — she was my mother and my only mother. Happy birthday, Mom. Still thinking of you. Still living in your shadow. Still hearing your voice.

 Relationships with family –parents —are so very complicated. I think you are very loving person and you are know that there was something IN HER that was not capable of reaching unconditional LOVE–write, write, and put something together, it helps the world to share — What a beautiful woman. Even if fiction, we write to dig into relationships. xx’s to you today.
 Thank you so much, — and I really mean that. Yes, she was beautiful when she was young. An actress. A writer. A narcissist. A romantic. A romantic to the end — that is, wanting romance and thinking about the men who had loved her and the men who she wanted to love her. Thank you.
 She looks a little bit like a physically healthy Judy Garland in this photo Tress. love to you!!

what confounds me about my mother is how much I am like her. I miss her 

she was fallible and unflappable a brilliant star a budding blossom of an enormous flower she was my mother

 

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